Yes, I am. I'm afraid if as the time goes by, I will really loving you. It is, something that I don't think I can handle. I'd like to stop from now on, to spend my time with you, and thinking about you, but I know that's not a good idea either. I know how it will be like when I choose that option. I will be thinking about you even more. What I want is just to put you in some part of my mind, not heart, and therefore, everything will stay at the equilibrium. But sometimes I was wondering whether everything will always stay that way. I can't predict the future, I can't even predict myself, myself is too mysterious even for me. And now when I started to feel afraid, I know that something is going wrong, and it does mean I have to find a new world, because I'm afraid if I really falling in love with you.
