I know how it feels being misunderstood. It's not that bad. But, if what happen is people judge you with an incorrect judgement and situation makes you can't clarify everything, it's not okay.
When i was high school, i figured out a problem. It was a school programs who intended to shape the discipline mental of every student. I never though that there's something wrong with that program until after i got the program. The result of that program was not a discipline mentality, but a broken warm family. What i mean by family is the relationship between the student of my batch and the seniors whom execute that program. Previously, the relation was warm, a lot of jokes, fun, helping each other, no formality, and majority students feel comfort. But it was change, the warm become cold.
I didn't know what was wrong, i tried to analyse the situations, had some discussion with other friends and some seniors whom i can talked to. Simply, at the end i proposed a report of my observation with an intention that at the future my school can create a better program and do not repeat the same mistakes. But people take it differently. My seniors who execute the programs hate me because they think that i didn't respect with what they have done for me and my friends. My school hate me because they think that i offended their program, they think that i was attacking them. My friends think that i was very brave to challenge some people who rule the school, the people whom they afraid the most.
What happen after that was out of my expectations. I expect that the school will call me, asking my clarification, and on that time i'll explain more and (if there's a misunderstanding in the public - i was expected the misunderstanding of my seniors) i can ask the school to clarify to the public about what I've done is actually. But you know what was happened? I sent six copy of my report, to the headmaster and other important stakeholders. They didn't even read it. And they judge me that way.
I was on a training for a week after sending the report and just understand about the situation after my friends told me the minutes i arrived. That day i looked for my school vice headmaster address and came to see him. Simply, I clarify everything (It was about 2.5 half hour conversations) and he bought me a very delicious fried rice and ask his friend to picked me home. Simply, the problem solved and i can still back to my school after the holiday. I told you a very brief and simple story, but it was not that simple actually.
Several months a go, i attended psychological test, three times in not more that three months. Each test judge me differently. What the problem here is; they judge. They were not an incompetence psychologist, they have a lot of experiences, recognition, and knowledge. But it makes me curious, whether i change my personality very fast or something wrong with psychological test conducted in this world. I know how it feels like being misunderstood, above story just a piece of puzzle, and i'm sure that i'm not alone. I want someday at the future, those people whom being misunderstood will come and talk to me and i can understand them correctly.
I want to know everything about psychology. I want to learn all the pieces of the puzzle and if some part is missing i will use my time to discover it. I want to be a psychologist, because i believe that something wrong with the world of psychology discipline today and i don't know what it is. I want to learn anything inside psychology, after i think that i'm done with economics and finance.